it's a happy day :)

last week, strong words were exchanged between me and a friend... turned out, we misunderstood each other a lot regarding her current relationship with someone...

personally, as long as she's happy and the relationship doesn't get in the way of work, i'm okay with it... i was happy for her, yes, but not ecstatic as she thought i'd be... i mean, come on, i saw it coming... with all her stories (told with too much details until i told her i didn't want to hear much about it anymore) about how the guy made her fall for him, when they became "official", the element of surprise just wasn't there... how could i be ecstatic?

in short, we had a spat about it and it wasn't good... not so Iya...

we both uttered words which both stabbed our sensitive innards! we bled, yes, and that day, we didn't talk to each other.

the next day, i explained myself in an e-mail (it had a lot of cuts so as not to stab her more) that's supposed to expire a day after reading... i told her that what i said was uncalled-for.. blah blah blah... i didn't see her that day... maybe she was sick.

we didn't talk after that... but i invited her to lunch everyday... using an instant messaging program, one day we went like "we're going to have lunch, are you hungry?" "no, i just had breakfast, thank you" "ok, we'll go ahead"... SOOOO FORMAL and SOOOO NOT NORMAL!

yesterday, i was "kakain kami... sama ka?" "no, kakakain ko lang, thanks" "okay"... BETTER, MUCH BETTER!

anyway... a week has passed since our lunch incident/argument...

i spoke to her casually a few times... it's been like this for a few days... she has been holding back... because she was hurt maybe, but i didn't want to bear grudges so i went like usual, just less crazy: invited her for lunch, relayed phone messages...

then... this afternoon... a message pops in my screen "penge chocoflakes"... thank God for chocoflakes! hahaha

gave her what she asked for... even had to stand up to get the container from another friend's work area... anyway... next message from her was this:
"thank you......... and i hate you"

true, i knew it... i did all i could for her not to hate me and left her all the choice...
with a smile, i typed in and sent her "i know"...

and we shared a laugh! that sure made my day! maybe there still isn't 100% peace on warland but there is hope.

and most of all... i'm glad she hated me... she hated me for bringing in something she couldn't resist, chocolates! she hated me more for that than for what happened... she hated me for bringing in something that would make her not hate me as much as she wanted to...

with a smile, i told her through an IM that she has to resist chocolates tomorrow for I have more at home and i certainly would be bringing that tomorrow!

she told me that she missed me...
and though she also called me "adik!", i'm perfectly fine, because that's the closest thing to normal than it has been in a week.
i'm happy!

happy, happy, happy... peace has come... all because i have entrusted this to God...